It started off kilter because I had to go to an appointment with my pulmonologist- the Dr. who manages my sleep apnea. Normally, I would not schedule a Dr.'s appointment first thing Monday AM, but he is notoriously hard to see, I rescheduled the appointment twice, and last week he cancelled it. Today was available, so I took it, to avoid waiting another 2 months! (Damn, this post is mundane!)

ANYWAY... I really needed to see him because I continue to be SO DAMN TIRED! Typically, I sleep anywhere from 8-10 hours a night, and I take an hour and a half nap EVERY DAY- even work days! On weekends, especially Saturday, Shelby and I take 2, sometimes 3 naps! I am becoming a cat!
I knew I was sleeping too much, and that part of my weight issue is that I am sleeping when I should be exercising, but I'm tired and it feels SO GOOD to sleep!
I guess the part that surprised me, but caught his attention, was that, as I was explaining my routine to him, I suddenly welled up with uncontrollable tears as I realized I am sleeping the best of my life away! I sobbed as I explained that I avoid social commitments after work and on weekends for fear of being too tired, that my closet, garage, and guest room are a mess because I'm too tired to care that they are a mess, and I actually will rush through things at work or blow them off so I can go home an hour early to start my nap. I held it together without coming unglued, but he could clearly tell I was emotional about it!
I just knew he was going to tell me I'm tired because I'm too fat, and too lazy to exercise, but he was actually very compassionate and actually complimented the fact that I've only gained 3 pounds since my last visit (I'll take that as a victory!) Anyway, he gave me a 3-step plan to get this under control!
Step One: Make sure my sleep apnea is under control. Even though I can't sleep without my machine at all, he's not 100% sure it is helping me sleep because there are a lot of factors that can cause it not to deliver the correct pressure. Newers, modern machines not only can adjust themselves to provide the correct pressure at all times, they can also monitor their performance via an electronic chip that the Dr. can read to chart when I am sleeping, how much I am sleeping, whether my sleep is disturbed, and how much pressure the machine has delivered. Ain't technology amazing?! So he wrote a prescription for a new machine, which I should get in a few days.
Step 2: he has made a note in my chart for my Internal Medicine Dr. to run some blood tests for common causes of chronic fatigue in men, namely thyroid function, testosterone levels, and vitamin D deficiency. I wonder if all those hours in wigs and heels have rendered Boy G's testosterone levels undetectable? That could be embarassing!
Finally, Step 3, only expected to happen after one and 2 are completed, is to lose weight. Methinks that could happen, if improved health can improve my mental picture and make me care. Meanwhile: please pass the doughnuts- I need a snack before I go to bed!!


